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I have lost my way
[New York] : Random House/Listening Library, [2018]
Physical Description:
6 audio discs (7 hr., 27 min.) : CD audio, digital ; 4 3/4 in.
General Note:
Title from container.

Compact discs.
A talented singer who is losing her voice, a gay teen on the brink of running away to find the boy he loves and a city newcomer reeling from a tragedy collide in Central Park and gradually reveal to each other the losses that have made them feel out of control.
Reading Level:

"Recommended for listeners ages 14 to 17."


Call Number
TEEN CD Forman, G.

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A powerful display of empathy and friendship from the #1 New York Times Bestselling author of If I Stay .

The New York Times bestseller from the author of If I Stay

"Heartwrenching...If you are ready to be emotionally wrecked yet again, you are in luck." - Hypable

A fateful accident draws three strangers together over the course of a single day:

Freya who has lost her voice while recording her debut album.
Harun who is making plans to run away from everyone he has ever loved.
Nathaniel who has just arrived in New York City with a backpack, a desperate plan, and nothing left to lose.

As the day progresses, their secrets start to unravel and they begin to understand that the way out of their own loss might just lie in help¬ing the others out of theirs.

An emotionally cathartic story of losing love, finding love, and dis¬covering the person you are meant to be, I Have Lost My Way is best¬selling author Gayle Forman at her finest.

"A beautifully written love song to every young person who has ever moved through fear and found themselves on the other side." - Jacqueline Woodson, bestselling author of Brown Girl Dreaming

Author Notes

Gayle Forman is an award-winning, young adult author, who was born in Los Angeles, California, in 1970. Forman began her career as a journalist, writing for Seventeen magazine. Her work has since appeared in publications such as Details, Jane, The Nation, Elle, Cosmopolitan and The New York Times Magazine.

In 2002, she took a trip around the world. The experience helped to form her first book, a travelogue entitled, You Can't Get There from Here: A Year on the Fringes of a Shrinking World, which was published in 2004.

Her first YA fiction was her novel, Sisters in Sanity, which was published in 2007 and based on one of her articles for Seventeen. Her other YA titles include: If I Stay and its companion, Where She Went; Just One Day, and its sequels, Just One Year and Just One Night. In 2015 she made The New York Times Best Seller List with her titles I Was Hereand Where She Went.

(Bowker Author Biography)

Reviews 5

School Library Journal Review

Gr 9 Up-Freya thought that she had only strained her voice, but now that it's been three weeks and she still can't sing, she's beginning to worry. Harun is stuck between his family's expectations and the truth of his sexuality. Nathaniel feels that he has nothing left to lose and uses the last of his money to go to New York City. Through a chance encounter, these teens learn of the burdensome secrets they are all carrying and begin to help each other heal over the course of one life-changing day. Forman has crafted a beautiful standalone novel full of heart and emotion, perfect for a YA audience. The story is told through the eyes of three distinct characters, and listeners will have no problem empathizing with their issues. Nicole Lewis, Sunil Malhotra, and Michael Crouch capably narrate the main roles. VERDICT A relatable story about struggling to find oneself that will make a good addition to high school or public library collections, especially where Forman is popular.-Elizabeth Kenyon, Merrillville High School, IN © Copyright 2018. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

Publisher's Weekly Review

With varying degrees of success, three actors lend their voices to the audio edition of Forman's YA novel. The story centers on three young adults, all hurting in unseen ways, who stumble upon one another in Central Park and become ad hoc family over the course of a single day. The standout performance comes from actor Malhotra, who sounds entirely believable as Harun, a closeted teen who has kept his personal life hidden from his Pakistani immigrant parents for fear of hurting them. He is a diehard fan of up-and-coming singer Freya, the female member of the trio. Actor Lewis is convincing as Freya, whose gravelly speaking voice is feisty and confident, but she falters when providing dreadful accents for Freda's fast-talking English music manager and Ethiopian father. The third performance, by veteran YA narrator Crouch as Freya's love interest Nathaniel, is quietly effective as he inhabits an introverted character who opens up as he grows closer to Freya and Harun over the course of the book. There are lovely moments, but the performances never come together to form a cohesive whole. Ages 14-up. A Viking hardcover. (Mar.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

Horn Book Review

A chance meeting leads to intimate connections for three struggling nineteen-year-olds in Formans (If I Stay, rev. 7/09; I Was Here, rev. 1/15) latest novel. Freya is an up-and-coming singer who has lost her voice, to her controlling managers chagrin. Harun is a college student with a broken heart and an impossible decision to make: tell his devout Muslim family he is gay, or travel to Pakistan and bring home a bride. Nathaniel just flew into the city, and hes hiding the true reason for his visit. After colliding in a three-way meet-cuteFreya falls from a Central Park pedestrian bridge and lands on Nathaniel, with Harun stepping in as a helpful bystanderthe teens each privately feel drawn to one another; their day, like their relationships, unfolds organically as they each find opportunities to take control of their lives, with the others providing quiet support. Narration flits among the teens perspectives; this keeps the pace lively, but some more abrupt shifts are disorienting. Intermittent flashback chapters deepen the characters compelling backstories. A precipitously tense conclusion offers no easy answers for Freya, Harun, or Nathaniel, instead providing a stirring reminder of the great risks of isolation and the immense solace and power that communityeven with virtual strangerscan bring. jessica tackett macdonald (c) Copyright 2018. The Horn Book, Inc., a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

Kirkus Review

A trio of struggling teens meets by chance in Central Park and becomes everything to one another.Freya, a rising half-Ethiopian, half-white and Jewish musical sensation, has lost her voicethe one thing that her handlers demand, that her sister resents, and that her fans will abandon her without. Harun, the dutiful closeted son of a traditional Pakistani-American family, has lost Jamesa black boy who is the love of his life and the secret part of himself he cannot bear to reveal. Nathaniel, a white boy bowed under the weight of responsibility, has lost his fatherhis only anchor to the rest of the world. As each one is preoccupied with the belief that they have no way forward, the teens' lives suddenly collide when Freya topples off a Central Park bridge, landing on and concussing Nathaniel. Harun helps them both to an emergency clinic, and their lives are forever changed. Loss is unquestionably the theme here, but Forman deploys a complexity that is mirrored in the narrative structure and borders on the fractal as loss compounds loss. The intersections of love, family, and identityand how loss impacts them alllay the groundwork for the breathtaking empathy and friendship that takes root among these three seemingly dissimilar teens within hours of meeting each other.Stunning doesn't even begin to say it. (Fiction. 14-18) Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.

Booklist Review

Freya sacrificed family for her music career, and now, just as she's poised to make it big, she loses her singing voice completely. Harun, caught between the boy he loves and the family he doesn't want to disappoint, prepares for a trip that could force him into a life he doesn't want. And Nathaniel, self-contained and used to having only his father in his life, arrives in New York with almost nothing. When a chance encounter throws the three together, none of them will leave unchanged. Forman's (If I Stay, 2009) latest is a mature, quiet examination of loss. The bulk of the narrative takes place over the course of just one day, with intermittent flashbacks giving depth to the characters. During that day, the three, who come from varying, diverse backgrounds and families, face their individual demons and try to find the paths they've lost. Tightly woven and, in places, heartbreaking, this is a masterful exploration of human emotion that will appeal to adults as well as older teens. HIGH-DEMAND BACKSTORY: If I Stay made Forman a superstar, and a publisher-described massive prepub campaign should keep this book on, and off, shelves.--Reagan, Maggie Copyright 2018 Booklist